To be in the good books..

A very busy week and a equally busy weekend.. that's all I have to say about this week. Was just enjoying one of Bruce Springsteen's songs today.. Every body wants to be the man at the top. So true? No one would say that I want to be at the bottom.. or I want to be somewhere in the middle.. It has to be at the top.. But then the question is if every one is at the top.. I don't think there would be anything called bottom. Top and bottom I feel both are our creations..There are people who want to be there by hook or by crook. Everyone is so much after the things that are outside that.. Where is the conscious ? We are talking about conscious.. subconscious is far away.

To know what your conscious has to say.. you got to think and spend some time alone every now and then and ask a question to yourself.. what for? Where am I heading? and then you might come up with something simple which means you might just start breathing and enjoying life.. rather running after happyness, which is not even defined. How many times in life does this happen to you ? You run after something knowingly.. often unknowingly.. and suddenly you realize.. jesus.. this is really not what I am looking for and then you ask yourself another question ? Then why I was so desperate to be there.. to get there.

I go through these conversation with my mind.. I call them dreams.. Tony Robbins call them dreams! Success to me would be directly proportional to the number of people that like you... the number of people that keep you in their good books.. It feels terrific when you are liked by someone.. Like here has a different context. It might sound very simple.. but its not that simple to be like by people around you.

People might just show you that they like you... but you know that's not the case. Yes its quite simple to figure out.. Think .. because.. thoughts become things! Anything that comes into reality has to be a thought first.. Things can not be without being thoughts...

Go after the bliss!

Prioratizing people

Yes, prioritizing things is OK in life, but what about people? And look who has been the highest priority in life? It should definitely be a person who has you on the least priority, would probably wait for all the other processes to preempt and then if the CPU is found ideal, you would probably get a chance to execute. Why then? Invest so much of your time and mental resources ? Which you can invest wisely on more productive stuff, which would help in the long run.

Short term success would most probably take you to long term failure. You got to keep this in mind. And about people, I would not even keep such people on the list who take me for granted.

Any ways.. What a road trip yesterday, couldn't be better. And the chicken .. delicious !! Had a great day yesterday actually. The trekking plan is still on though..

Emotional Fools

Yes, that's exactly what you would call them, but then these are the few good people around. The one's that we call emotional fools! And these are the people who hurt themselves the most. It would take weeks for them to know whether they were wrong or was it some one else. And in either case they will hurt themselves for sure.

This is the only reason I stay foolish and I love fun! because this is not me. apne se nahi hoga baba yeah! Misunderstanding is fine, but assumption! damn! You just assume it to be the way you think.. doesn't mean that it has to be the way it is. NO! And why react so early, before even knowing anything.. I would call it reactions on assumptions. And in such a case there are more reactions after knowing everything.. or after knowing the actual fact.

Any ways this was all about some one assuming something then me being sorry for it and then the other person realizing I need not be sorry.. and more chaos because I said sorry. At one stage I was like uhhh... give me a break! and grow up!

This actually happens with people who don't hide their emotions and are open in every sense. There should be a stream line though, because this kind of a nature means.. trust any one and get hurt on most occasions!

Until yesterday I thought time management was the key but today I feel anger management should come before that and emotion management should come before that.. Emotion is a state which does change very soon with the states of mind, we can afford to give some time to that state change rather than react too soon. There are so many times, we are angry and frustrated and in little time a little distraction of focus for that would get the smile back on our face.

And as it is said.. Time is the best solution to some problems in life. You got to wait patiently..These are my beliefs.

Anjana..

No no.. not Ranbeer, I was talking about me. Mondays are not so good to talk about ;) no.1 previous weeks issues are on plate.. no.2 The new shit. Honestly, I don't hate Mondays. I actually consider them as the foundation of the week. A bad start would so easily end up into a pathetic end. I try real hard to keep my cool, actually I don't need to try very hard for that.

Keeping work aside, tomorrow is Ganesha Visarjan here. A huge festival for all the drunkards, its an official dry day. I don't really get the point of drinking and celebrating, and its all those people who really don't have anything to do. Its so easy to get on this track and run after some politician for life and end up a karyakarta! Its the supporters, the people who pursue dreams! I feel they are attracted towards this life for a little fame.. which they never get for their entire life. But no one would want to spend time for nothing, there has to be a motive. But its just a wrong judgment or a wrong decision that takes them there and then they keep loosing hope...

what a weekend!

Looks like my life is really happening! it has so much for me every day.. every moment! The past is gone and I can start things from scratch! he he... As I always say : No regrets about the past and No worries about the future!

To start with, why is it that people are not sure about what they want and what they don't want in life. What sense does it make to live like animals' Thank god! I don't have my life lined with others expectations.. my rules! my principles! most importantly My Decisions! I don't think I would even like to do my shopping with some one else around!

I would do the wrong.. but I would like to be responsible for that and not blame others for it. This is so ridiculous. Its like God coming to you and asking you : beta what do you want ? And you say: Hey, I am not too sure!

Jesus!

Anyways moving on.. If people don't know what they really really want. Then why is it that they want everything around them.. You cant have everything, why that greed..

Are some people licensed to do what every they feel like .. and what every they want to ? I mean, you cant do that. No one is licensed to do that. Specially to humans! And It's always the common man.. the man basically ;) who suffers! Its impossible for such people to pursue happyness! They can only run after happiness..

Its Monday morning! Back to panel management, back to work!

New hair style

Ahh.. I have been thinking of this ever since I saw that movie, Rajneeti.. Of course Manoj Bajpai was supreme in that movie, but that was not only thing that I was interested in. It was something else that I was observing very closely.. no no not katrina kaif.. I might sound funny, but yes it was Arjun Rampal's hair style that I was most attracted to in the movie. And what more, a couple of days after that I saw MI2 and I was even more tempted to grow my hair long.. But then It took almost one week to decide on that thought.

And final word is, I am going for it! No matter what, I will write my university papers with a pony.. But no looking back... I hope this wont create the usual chaos at home ;)

By the way, the over hyped DABAANG is under control.. I liked the movie and this time it was his sun glasses ;)

eshtyle me rehne ka... waise bhi khelne kudne ke bohot kam din bache hai mere ;)

Just another college day..

Yes, spent entire day in college today doing absolute nothing.. the questions is - What did we really do ? Answer is.. we spent over 6 hours copying content for our brochure, which should have been a 1 hour task.

Weekends for me are so overwhelming.. its like so much to do with so little time. And when I loose 50% of it doing no sense, it feels bad. We have paid a huge price for taking the initiative, perfect example of what you thought .. and what actually is. Its a huge drift, you cant expect people to support you.. or take any one for granted. But any ways, another lesson in life well learnt.. We used to think that we will take placements to next level and recruit every single student from our college in some or the other company, was just a dream.. and ended up a dream!

I totally agree that I had nothing to loose from this entire incident.. But I was a responsible member of the mess up and I take the blame on me. If I had better communicating qualities or may be if I had a little more time which I don't have now, ever since I have started working in the day. We have already talked about my schedule and the Time deadlines... week days I cant take out a single minute.

The vision was lacking.. we had the vision we couldn't show the same to others in our class. May be they thought we were doing it just for the sake of doing it. I have experienced this a quite a lot of times in my life where in .. there is a huge transition in the persons perception. I mean the people I meet, they think different about me before we actually start hanging up.. most of them are not sure about me. They keep guessing... good or bad.

Bad I am! Pursuing good..

Well attended a post funeral function earlier in the day.. and I kept wondering why ? and when ? Why do people spend so much time in this kind of stuff ? I mean yes, earlier people dint had much to do in life.. so may be they could afford to spend entire day in such events. But times have changed.. You can't afford to waste 100 peoples time like that. And the second question, when are we going to stop dumping everything in the river... There are people who talk about saving the river and there are people who hardly care. But the society is in balance because of the first little group of people. I mean everywhere, be it politics.. be it any government sector.

I have started believing the line that says.. any change has to start from micro level. If each one of us would contribute things sound so easy, at the same time if we say : are yaar kya baat karta hai... ye sab impossible hai. Then it sounds difficult.

But very difficult is a walk in in the park for us.. we are talking about the Mission Impossible!

Happenings..

Did i misspell it.. oh, not sure, its not the pursuit of happenings.. its happyness. Who cares if its an i or a y. starting early made some good things happen through out the day. First up I finished with the upload task, which was pretty simple in the end, but yes debugging issues like that takes me one step closer..

The thought process through out the day was wayward. But this one thought kept creeping my mind, Why do some people make it look so simple and are so humble, down to earth and caring.. irrespective of their material wealth. Its usually the people with a wealthy heart.. and I admire such people. The first name that comes to my mind is the person I met recently.. not because she invited me home for the delicious chicken!

Take this for a thought; a lady over 45 years old not sure about the exact age... no women would ever let you know that ;) Working at a top position in a govt company takes up a Phd program for 5 years. What an Attitude ? Who would do that.. I often meet people who talk so much about helping other... so much about social service.. so much about ngo's, but that's only till they start earning good. And its only when they have got the good wealth they could contribute or we can contribute in a greater extent. At just when its time.. they turn their backs.. Why ?

I would write much of a complaints that I have about the society and about myself.. with the positive stories as well. I feel we should at least stay committed to ourselves.. hypocrisy sucks.. I have come to this conclusion

package & company > are directly proportional to attitude...

I can show attitude to people those are less fortunate than me, What ever we are today. Or whatever any one is today is just a bit more fortunate than some one else around. A guy from slum might be far more intelligent than I am, but since he was not fortunate enough to have parents like me who send him to a good school and educate him. Does that mean I get to show my talents to that guy. I always believe that you are me or anyone is a point on x-y graph which has 2 +ves and 2 -ves, the axis. There will be points that are -ve to you, those are the unfortunate ones and there might be people who are more fortunate than you. That's it!

And you would complain about the ones on the higher side, for showing too much attitude or arrogance, at the same time you might also complain about the people that are below your position for not working hard.. and getting a good life to themselves.

I am not sure what I am talking about, rather I am not sure if I am making sense here.. to be precise : Why this division based on material worth ?

I would have worked so hard, may be far more harder and I would have not been at this position.. or may be I would have never worked as hard as I am and still end up a millionaire. How does that become the segmentation factor ?

Immidiate Effects..

Well.. Yesterday has prompted me to start my day a little early, and I have did that way before. Its just 6:30. So technically I have 2 hours extra at work :) So things will be touch different from today. It would be nicer if I get that to 6 instead and start with my mobile computing and shit.. but anyways, this is good..

I am planning to spend every $ and every minute wisely and that's the ultimate goal on my mind right now, coz only if I have more time I can produce more outcome of it. Yesterday, I was talking about a day. It's not just a day.. its not about 24 hours, Months go by... years go by.. And I just have some 3000 weeks, out of which 1000 are already gone.. I need to use the rest of the 2k wisely.

Getting up early has been really difficult and its not just me.. It must be happening with you guys as well. But if you notice, its just a matter of that first 10 minutes, and after that its like.. oh wow.. its great!

10 minutes of pain.. 2 hours of pleasure.. and in a week you have 10 hours more at your hand, isn't that feeling great? Yes, it is. I know it better than any one else in this world.

I was thinking about writing specific rather than generic yesterday. But, my environment tells me everything should be generic, You know what I mean right ? I mean I can make it specific by writing on software's or just about struts, just the things that I know.. not much. But anyways, If I think too much about what to write.. I am pretty sure, I am not going to write anything. So, generic is good.

And there are a lot of things to learn, a lot exiting things happening in your day to day life.. you don't need to take out a day for that. Things happen around you, you can take them positively and negatively.. or just don't care about whats happening around you.

But the kind of people around me never let me do the other two. I am glad about that, I get to learn so much from every one around me.. my colleagues Naeem, Viraz, Ameya... of course my friends niliya, susiya.... Mama.. I am sorry, I don't have much of a social life, In fact not many of my colleagues have that. Our work doesn't real permit to go into politics, I would have loved to ;)

Stressed day...

Would actually sound like a negative thought, but seriously .. was a very tiring day today. I am at this stage of life.. where I want the 36 hours day. I remember my mama saying that when I was in school.. And I used to think that why the hell someone would want that much time ?

I work 5 day a week right now.. and I before I could realize its Monday.. its already Wednesday and before I could think of the project its already Friday. I have been going through this OPRA life management program of Tony Robbins, Which is more about time management, because he believes that time management is ultimately life management.

Coming to the point.. I start my day at around 9 am in the morning.. rather 8 am in the morning, not a strict schedule that I follow. By 8:30 I am in my office, with emails already read on the phone. So I already have things going in my mind about the day.. and accordingly I set up tasks that need to be done by the end of day. But then these are my priorities when I start my day, and the priorities change dramatically through out the day.

Sometimes its just a knowledge issue, If I don't have the knowledge about a particular task on my plate I need to educate myself on that topic which means spending 5 times more time than normal. And in the back of my mind there is thing called daily status update going on... And ultimately when I am done with such a task that should be a 5 minutes work if I had the knowledge about it might just take 3 hours for me.. The positive part is.. next time I have the same shit, I get it done in 5 minutes :)

Any ways, parents had actually come today. Now if they call me and I tell them I busy with some shit and might just not find time to see you guys : its a big deal.. trust me: They wont really understand me.. specially since they come from a business that is so : At your pace kind of.. Where things never really have any time boundaries. In fact they might just think that I have changed and I am not the same person.. or the other side, the better side : they might just understand me and forgive me ;)

36 hours would solve my problem to a great extent..The only concern I have right now is -> How the hell I can create more time ? And the answer would probably be the Life Management program :

Outcome
Progress
Reason
Action

And I would certainly find out that entire tape serious. And I always think about this one thing: How can I get more and more productive each day.. What is it that would get the most out of me. And I try a different things with some amount of success.

See.. I am already late its 12 12 pm.. Need to sleep. Ever since I have started IST, I sleep for like 8 hours or more.. And previously I never used to sleep for more than 5 hours.. 6 hours sleep was like a paradise for me at that time and I would stay fresh as ever.. but now the number has gone to 9 ;)

Tag Cloud

Well.. its again been quite long as always.. ;) Well anyways this time its different and new. Yes we have added a new feature to our basket, you guys must have heard about it or even used it.. its called Tag Cloud, has nothing to do with the rains.. Its an optimized mechanism to read a bunch of collected response, where you would ideally spend more than a day to go through your customers feedback, it would take hardly a minute to overview and your customers, not the exact feedback obviously but it would certainly let you know whether your customers are happy with your or not.. if its a question about them being satisfied or not.

Another one is called the max diff conjoint analysis, most of you must have already heard about it. But to simplify its just a question that lets you pick the most prefered and the least preffered option among a list of options. This way you get to know about the likes and dislikes.. or more precisely it would give you an idea of what is hot and what can be sidelined..

Not in the greatest of mind sets today.. but yes just thinking about thinking.

A little introspection led me to think about myself.. today and a couple of years back. If I try to note down a few things that have changed since then.. It would be very difficult to do so, and that gives me a thought about how am feeling about it after a couple of years from now.

Nothing has actually changed, yes I have definitely learnt a few good lessons during this period.. then I have started earning far more than what I used to at that time, may be I never thot I would be here, may be NASA.. ;) just kidding.. To be honest I am satisfied with where I stand right now.. and I know its still a long way to go. Not being over ambitious here.. but yes a little ambitious.

Coming to the point nothing actually changes in life.. As the book said, the spirit .. its the same.. A few thoughts here and there.. that's all. Those few thoughts rule your mind.. define your mood.

I have had my theory about this and I dint knew that's so true.. Its about this success / money ladder.. You take up one step.. you get to know the people on the next step and you want to get there... And you think that would be it.. god please get me there.. that's all I want. But that's not what you really want.. god takes you there.. you get to know the people on the next step.. and this continues.. and finally you would probably meet Gates ;) that's because I feel you would go there.. If you really want something you will be there.. you will get that "want"

Then I thought, I got to sit here and rest on this step before I move on.. coz this step is a good one.. you know with a good place to sit, shade and all.. So I said lets sit here.. And I asked myself a question: Is this what I really want? first up.. do I know what I really want? Initially the answer was "yes, that's exactly what I want, to move on as far as I can and get to the top" ... But how did people come to know about this top thing ? How do i recognize this Top ? Its because of the bottom I guess.. There is death.. so there is life.. there is day .. and we have night.

And then I asked another question : May be I am trying to hard like that farmer.. remember that story? Where god grants the farmer as much land as he can cover till the sun sets.. And he dies for land ;) Killer instinct he he

What my point here is : What did I really want? We had absolutely nothing when we entered this world.. and we are not going to have anything when we leave..

I believe.. the hunger that is money oriented wont last too long.. that's what I have read in so many books so far.. Its got to be something else.. You got to compete with the world, but shouldn't really be money. For example if I say I want to become the best programmer.. well that's more a drive than a drive to earn $1 million a month. I read many business biographies .. and most of them conclude to a common point when it comes to the drive and "Why this Business thing?". I don't think anyone would have started his business with money in mind. Its just not possible.. do you think it is? Nooo

Money would obviously come as a by product when you develop a product form with in..

More to come..