Celebrations

Its the season of mega festivals, we have the dushera today and Diwali lined up, which again is a bunch of festivals ;). Seasons from me are like check posts on a long journey called life, There is no destination. Every season kind of just reminds me about the last year, and I start thinking about what things were like one year back.. and What things are right now ? Its actually one way to measure my success/ numbers.. Its a sudden realization of 52 weeks gone. If I start counting the positives and the negatives in these 52 weeks, I have never been very satisfied with my performance. Performance for me is not just achievement, and of course not the numbers.. numbers here are package! balance ! savings !

A lot more than that.. coz these are the things we need not worry at the moment. I believe numbers come into play after we have attained a certain level of success or life standard. An example would be Ratan Tata. There is nothing that man can't do, He has all that he could wish. And there is no wish he could not fulfill. At that stage, how would he compete with the rest of the world ? What keeps him going ? I am not sure about that but I think its at that point when numbers come into play.

Anyways, coming to the point that's my look out towards festivals. Its like sub consciously analyzing the year that's gone.. and subconsciously setting up new targets until next Diwali, or next dusshera... I am a strong believer in god.

I remember the good old days.. when we used to get so exited about going home in diwali vacations. I don't remember me waiting for the next day after the exams finished, we used to take off the same day.. In fact the last paper was always fucked.. Geography! coz we used to do all the packing the day before and the excitement used to be at threshold! We used to make sure we carry minimum luggage, we never used to have much.. every thing used to fit in the school sack. a pair of shirts and pair of trousers ( bought on previous Diwali or summer ) I had my own reason for not buying much clothes when I was in school, My height. But even if that was not the case, the scenario wouldn't have changed much.

All we used to think about was that one month! full on planning.. And today looking forward to a month is like looking forward to day then. We used to have the exact amount that was required for the bus fare then. Not 5 rupees extra.. ha ha ha ( got us in trouble a hell lot of times ;) )

I can remember at least 10 shop keepers with whom I had a good rapo, where in I could ask for udhar ! and also money when needed. The bhajiwali aaji... she was the most easy one to ask money for, she used to have so much in her bag.. I decided then ke I will sell bhaji in a AC van, of course plans were only for college road ;)

So it was those Diwali's and it's this Diwali.. Not that I am not exited any more about the festivals, but its not the same. no way..

tab kaha pata the etne duniya daari

Ram Rahim

First of all, Thanks to every one.. this every one is a long list, so lets just call them every one, for showing the world that India is still a secular state, where all the religions are still considered equal. One more positive, none of the political party took this as a advantage to create chaos for its own benefit. But yes, Media tried level best to create some chaos somewhere in the country so that they could get some footage for a day or two.. and they would have celebrated if it had been a week.

Indian Media = Peepli live.. That's so true. I see that media person in PL in Barkha Dutt, Always looking for controversies and controversial statements from political leaders, not matter how sensitive the matter could be. She gets her footage.. her food. And the channel gets its TRP.

I don't know anything about the 8000 pages Judgment, all I wanted was peace.. neither I have any sort of discrimination on religious grounds. I could write so much about the disappointing Media.. especially NDTV. But being such a sensitive matter.. even I am scared to open up lol... just kidding..

The Mumbai Times heading reads this : "2 parts to hindus, 1 part to muslims" Why ? Does it look hot ? More sexy ?

But I think the people of our country have started to think on their own as well. They are not feeding on what is fed to them by political leaders. Which in itself is a great thing.

To be in the good books..

A very busy week and a equally busy weekend.. that's all I have to say about this week. Was just enjoying one of Bruce Springsteen's songs today.. Every body wants to be the man at the top. So true? No one would say that I want to be at the bottom.. or I want to be somewhere in the middle.. It has to be at the top.. But then the question is if every one is at the top.. I don't think there would be anything called bottom. Top and bottom I feel both are our creations..There are people who want to be there by hook or by crook. Everyone is so much after the things that are outside that.. Where is the conscious ? We are talking about conscious.. subconscious is far away.

To know what your conscious has to say.. you got to think and spend some time alone every now and then and ask a question to yourself.. what for? Where am I heading? and then you might come up with something simple which means you might just start breathing and enjoying life.. rather running after happyness, which is not even defined. How many times in life does this happen to you ? You run after something knowingly.. often unknowingly.. and suddenly you realize.. jesus.. this is really not what I am looking for and then you ask yourself another question ? Then why I was so desperate to be there.. to get there.

I go through these conversation with my mind.. I call them dreams.. Tony Robbins call them dreams! Success to me would be directly proportional to the number of people that like you... the number of people that keep you in their good books.. It feels terrific when you are liked by someone.. Like here has a different context. It might sound very simple.. but its not that simple to be like by people around you.

People might just show you that they like you... but you know that's not the case. Yes its quite simple to figure out.. Think .. because.. thoughts become things! Anything that comes into reality has to be a thought first.. Things can not be without being thoughts...

Go after the bliss!

Prioratizing people

Yes, prioritizing things is OK in life, but what about people? And look who has been the highest priority in life? It should definitely be a person who has you on the least priority, would probably wait for all the other processes to preempt and then if the CPU is found ideal, you would probably get a chance to execute. Why then? Invest so much of your time and mental resources ? Which you can invest wisely on more productive stuff, which would help in the long run.

Short term success would most probably take you to long term failure. You got to keep this in mind. And about people, I would not even keep such people on the list who take me for granted.

Any ways.. What a road trip yesterday, couldn't be better. And the chicken .. delicious !! Had a great day yesterday actually. The trekking plan is still on though..

Emotional Fools

Yes, that's exactly what you would call them, but then these are the few good people around. The one's that we call emotional fools! And these are the people who hurt themselves the most. It would take weeks for them to know whether they were wrong or was it some one else. And in either case they will hurt themselves for sure.

This is the only reason I stay foolish and I love fun! because this is not me. apne se nahi hoga baba yeah! Misunderstanding is fine, but assumption! damn! You just assume it to be the way you think.. doesn't mean that it has to be the way it is. NO! And why react so early, before even knowing anything.. I would call it reactions on assumptions. And in such a case there are more reactions after knowing everything.. or after knowing the actual fact.

Any ways this was all about some one assuming something then me being sorry for it and then the other person realizing I need not be sorry.. and more chaos because I said sorry. At one stage I was like uhhh... give me a break! and grow up!

This actually happens with people who don't hide their emotions and are open in every sense. There should be a stream line though, because this kind of a nature means.. trust any one and get hurt on most occasions!

Until yesterday I thought time management was the key but today I feel anger management should come before that and emotion management should come before that.. Emotion is a state which does change very soon with the states of mind, we can afford to give some time to that state change rather than react too soon. There are so many times, we are angry and frustrated and in little time a little distraction of focus for that would get the smile back on our face.

And as it is said.. Time is the best solution to some problems in life. You got to wait patiently..These are my beliefs.

Anjana..

No no.. not Ranbeer, I was talking about me. Mondays are not so good to talk about ;) no.1 previous weeks issues are on plate.. no.2 The new shit. Honestly, I don't hate Mondays. I actually consider them as the foundation of the week. A bad start would so easily end up into a pathetic end. I try real hard to keep my cool, actually I don't need to try very hard for that.

Keeping work aside, tomorrow is Ganesha Visarjan here. A huge festival for all the drunkards, its an official dry day. I don't really get the point of drinking and celebrating, and its all those people who really don't have anything to do. Its so easy to get on this track and run after some politician for life and end up a karyakarta! Its the supporters, the people who pursue dreams! I feel they are attracted towards this life for a little fame.. which they never get for their entire life. But no one would want to spend time for nothing, there has to be a motive. But its just a wrong judgment or a wrong decision that takes them there and then they keep loosing hope...

what a weekend!

Looks like my life is really happening! it has so much for me every day.. every moment! The past is gone and I can start things from scratch! he he... As I always say : No regrets about the past and No worries about the future!

To start with, why is it that people are not sure about what they want and what they don't want in life. What sense does it make to live like animals' Thank god! I don't have my life lined with others expectations.. my rules! my principles! most importantly My Decisions! I don't think I would even like to do my shopping with some one else around!

I would do the wrong.. but I would like to be responsible for that and not blame others for it. This is so ridiculous. Its like God coming to you and asking you : beta what do you want ? And you say: Hey, I am not too sure!

Jesus!

Anyways moving on.. If people don't know what they really really want. Then why is it that they want everything around them.. You cant have everything, why that greed..

Are some people licensed to do what every they feel like .. and what every they want to ? I mean, you cant do that. No one is licensed to do that. Specially to humans! And It's always the common man.. the man basically ;) who suffers! Its impossible for such people to pursue happyness! They can only run after happiness..

Its Monday morning! Back to panel management, back to work!