To be in the good books..

A very busy week and a equally busy weekend.. that's all I have to say about this week. Was just enjoying one of Bruce Springsteen's songs today.. Every body wants to be the man at the top. So true? No one would say that I want to be at the bottom.. or I want to be somewhere in the middle.. It has to be at the top.. But then the question is if every one is at the top.. I don't think there would be anything called bottom. Top and bottom I feel both are our creations..There are people who want to be there by hook or by crook. Everyone is so much after the things that are outside that.. Where is the conscious ? We are talking about conscious.. subconscious is far away.

To know what your conscious has to say.. you got to think and spend some time alone every now and then and ask a question to yourself.. what for? Where am I heading? and then you might come up with something simple which means you might just start breathing and enjoying life.. rather running after happyness, which is not even defined. How many times in life does this happen to you ? You run after something knowingly.. often unknowingly.. and suddenly you realize.. jesus.. this is really not what I am looking for and then you ask yourself another question ? Then why I was so desperate to be there.. to get there.

I go through these conversation with my mind.. I call them dreams.. Tony Robbins call them dreams! Success to me would be directly proportional to the number of people that like you... the number of people that keep you in their good books.. It feels terrific when you are liked by someone.. Like here has a different context. It might sound very simple.. but its not that simple to be like by people around you.

People might just show you that they like you... but you know that's not the case. Yes its quite simple to figure out.. Think .. because.. thoughts become things! Anything that comes into reality has to be a thought first.. Things can not be without being thoughts...

Go after the bliss!

Prioratizing people

Yes, prioritizing things is OK in life, but what about people? And look who has been the highest priority in life? It should definitely be a person who has you on the least priority, would probably wait for all the other processes to preempt and then if the CPU is found ideal, you would probably get a chance to execute. Why then? Invest so much of your time and mental resources ? Which you can invest wisely on more productive stuff, which would help in the long run.

Short term success would most probably take you to long term failure. You got to keep this in mind. And about people, I would not even keep such people on the list who take me for granted.

Any ways.. What a road trip yesterday, couldn't be better. And the chicken .. delicious !! Had a great day yesterday actually. The trekking plan is still on though..

Emotional Fools

Yes, that's exactly what you would call them, but then these are the few good people around. The one's that we call emotional fools! And these are the people who hurt themselves the most. It would take weeks for them to know whether they were wrong or was it some one else. And in either case they will hurt themselves for sure.

This is the only reason I stay foolish and I love fun! because this is not me. apne se nahi hoga baba yeah! Misunderstanding is fine, but assumption! damn! You just assume it to be the way you think.. doesn't mean that it has to be the way it is. NO! And why react so early, before even knowing anything.. I would call it reactions on assumptions. And in such a case there are more reactions after knowing everything.. or after knowing the actual fact.

Any ways this was all about some one assuming something then me being sorry for it and then the other person realizing I need not be sorry.. and more chaos because I said sorry. At one stage I was like uhhh... give me a break! and grow up!

This actually happens with people who don't hide their emotions and are open in every sense. There should be a stream line though, because this kind of a nature means.. trust any one and get hurt on most occasions!

Until yesterday I thought time management was the key but today I feel anger management should come before that and emotion management should come before that.. Emotion is a state which does change very soon with the states of mind, we can afford to give some time to that state change rather than react too soon. There are so many times, we are angry and frustrated and in little time a little distraction of focus for that would get the smile back on our face.

And as it is said.. Time is the best solution to some problems in life. You got to wait patiently..These are my beliefs.

Anjana..

No no.. not Ranbeer, I was talking about me. Mondays are not so good to talk about ;) no.1 previous weeks issues are on plate.. no.2 The new shit. Honestly, I don't hate Mondays. I actually consider them as the foundation of the week. A bad start would so easily end up into a pathetic end. I try real hard to keep my cool, actually I don't need to try very hard for that.

Keeping work aside, tomorrow is Ganesha Visarjan here. A huge festival for all the drunkards, its an official dry day. I don't really get the point of drinking and celebrating, and its all those people who really don't have anything to do. Its so easy to get on this track and run after some politician for life and end up a karyakarta! Its the supporters, the people who pursue dreams! I feel they are attracted towards this life for a little fame.. which they never get for their entire life. But no one would want to spend time for nothing, there has to be a motive. But its just a wrong judgment or a wrong decision that takes them there and then they keep loosing hope...

what a weekend!

Looks like my life is really happening! it has so much for me every day.. every moment! The past is gone and I can start things from scratch! he he... As I always say : No regrets about the past and No worries about the future!

To start with, why is it that people are not sure about what they want and what they don't want in life. What sense does it make to live like animals' Thank god! I don't have my life lined with others expectations.. my rules! my principles! most importantly My Decisions! I don't think I would even like to do my shopping with some one else around!

I would do the wrong.. but I would like to be responsible for that and not blame others for it. This is so ridiculous. Its like God coming to you and asking you : beta what do you want ? And you say: Hey, I am not too sure!

Jesus!

Anyways moving on.. If people don't know what they really really want. Then why is it that they want everything around them.. You cant have everything, why that greed..

Are some people licensed to do what every they feel like .. and what every they want to ? I mean, you cant do that. No one is licensed to do that. Specially to humans! And It's always the common man.. the man basically ;) who suffers! Its impossible for such people to pursue happyness! They can only run after happiness..

Its Monday morning! Back to panel management, back to work!

New hair style

Ahh.. I have been thinking of this ever since I saw that movie, Rajneeti.. Of course Manoj Bajpai was supreme in that movie, but that was not only thing that I was interested in. It was something else that I was observing very closely.. no no not katrina kaif.. I might sound funny, but yes it was Arjun Rampal's hair style that I was most attracted to in the movie. And what more, a couple of days after that I saw MI2 and I was even more tempted to grow my hair long.. But then It took almost one week to decide on that thought.

And final word is, I am going for it! No matter what, I will write my university papers with a pony.. But no looking back... I hope this wont create the usual chaos at home ;)

By the way, the over hyped DABAANG is under control.. I liked the movie and this time it was his sun glasses ;)

eshtyle me rehne ka... waise bhi khelne kudne ke bohot kam din bache hai mere ;)

Just another college day..

Yes, spent entire day in college today doing absolute nothing.. the questions is - What did we really do ? Answer is.. we spent over 6 hours copying content for our brochure, which should have been a 1 hour task.

Weekends for me are so overwhelming.. its like so much to do with so little time. And when I loose 50% of it doing no sense, it feels bad. We have paid a huge price for taking the initiative, perfect example of what you thought .. and what actually is. Its a huge drift, you cant expect people to support you.. or take any one for granted. But any ways, another lesson in life well learnt.. We used to think that we will take placements to next level and recruit every single student from our college in some or the other company, was just a dream.. and ended up a dream!

I totally agree that I had nothing to loose from this entire incident.. But I was a responsible member of the mess up and I take the blame on me. If I had better communicating qualities or may be if I had a little more time which I don't have now, ever since I have started working in the day. We have already talked about my schedule and the Time deadlines... week days I cant take out a single minute.

The vision was lacking.. we had the vision we couldn't show the same to others in our class. May be they thought we were doing it just for the sake of doing it. I have experienced this a quite a lot of times in my life where in .. there is a huge transition in the persons perception. I mean the people I meet, they think different about me before we actually start hanging up.. most of them are not sure about me. They keep guessing... good or bad.

Bad I am! Pursuing good..

Well attended a post funeral function earlier in the day.. and I kept wondering why ? and when ? Why do people spend so much time in this kind of stuff ? I mean yes, earlier people dint had much to do in life.. so may be they could afford to spend entire day in such events. But times have changed.. You can't afford to waste 100 peoples time like that. And the second question, when are we going to stop dumping everything in the river... There are people who talk about saving the river and there are people who hardly care. But the society is in balance because of the first little group of people. I mean everywhere, be it politics.. be it any government sector.

I have started believing the line that says.. any change has to start from micro level. If each one of us would contribute things sound so easy, at the same time if we say : are yaar kya baat karta hai... ye sab impossible hai. Then it sounds difficult.

But very difficult is a walk in in the park for us.. we are talking about the Mission Impossible!